emolychan

Wooo! Good news y'all. I'm feeling more like myself again these days. I am now anxiety-free, which means I can actually sleep through (most) of the night again. I think it's been 3 weeks. Some of it was alleviated after seeing her love daycare SO MUCH but the root of most of my anxiety was her night sleep and just trying to figure her out. Having Carlo here I think helped ease all of that.. My mom certainly helped me out a ton when I was back home, but at the end of the day, Mya isn't her child and of course, I couldn't expect her to take her on fully, so I put all of the responsibility on myself. Now that Carlo is here, it's shared and it's so much easier. A lot less tiring and taxing - physically and mentally. SERIOUSLY though. I was just thinking the other day - once you have a baby.. expect not to have a 'chill weekend' for a good few years. Those days where you cherish a day to sleep in? DOESN'T EXIST ANYMORE. Every day is go go go. Thankful...

We weren't expecting to put Mya in daycare for 2-3 weeks after we got back to NY, but since she adjusted to the new place and timezone pretty much instantly, we figured she was ready - and I could really use the break since Carlo is gone pretty much the whole day - all week. At least with my mom, it was only half of the week and I had some help. Of course, I couldn't sleep the night before she started daycare, as well as the ENTIRE WEEK - just thinking and worrying too much, even though she's adjusting great. I didn't have separation anxiety and dropping her off, but I did wonder a lot of how she's doing with her naps and if she's doing well and hoping that she's happy. The first couple of days though, I did regret it because now is seriously the BEST age with her personality forming, smiling, laughing, and babbling more than ever.. I'm like.. man.. I did all the nap and sleep training and now I have to send her away now that she's the most fun ...

15 lbs. 13 oz (gained 13 ounces from not gaining anything between 5-6 months!) 26 inches long (gained 1 inch) Smiles and laughs a lot more - this seems to be the age where her personality is starting to shine! Started FINALLY playing with her own toys (instead of just watching me play with them for her). Constantly wanting to grab things on her own. Started turning her wrist a lot and getting really good at gripping things and moving them from hand to hand Kicks water during bathtime. Seems like she actually has fun during bathtime now :) Started babbling again! Gets distracted during diaper changes and always turns to the left or right and tries to grab stuff Holds my hand/finger when she nurses (it's so cute!!) Super good neck control! Can sit up with her neck straight really well. 6 month sleep regression + growth spurt happening around the 6 month, 3 week mark. Lot of night wakings to eat (had to start using formula to keep up with her appetite!) Cheeks DEFINITELY g...

..Earlier this week while we were in the elevator in the morning to go to work / drop Mya off at daycare. *Little girl walks into elevator and sees Carlo in uniform* "You're an army man?" *looks down and sees Mya in the stroller "This is your baby? You're an army man AND you have a baby?" Kids say the darndest things. Carlo must have melted a little and thought about how Mya will be at that talking age one day. BTW! It's Carlo's birthday today!! I kept asking what he wanted to eat and how he wanted to celebrate but he said he's just happy to have us all together again :')

As of 10 days ago, we moved back to New York! Got back to New York on the evening of 9/09, and it was my birthday the next day. The most stressful birthday I've ever had. Was in 0 mood to celebrate since I was EXHAUSTED with the flight back with baby the day prior and then just settling into the new place by myself with the baby since Carlo had to go to work. Imagine almost no sleep from an exhausting day just to have another exhausting day after it. No sleep for the wicked. I remember that night thinking.. man, I miss those days where you would wake up and say something like, "I AIN'T DOING SHIT TODAY.." Yeah, you don't get that privilege when you're a parent.. My last post 2 weeks ago, I alluded to how bad Mya (and my) sleep was. That was seriously hell week. Probably the hardest week I dealt with at home. Of course it HAD to be the week prior to the flying back home when I had the least sleep I've had since she was probably a newborn. Overall, the f...

I've promised MULTIPLE times throughout this baby/blog's life that I wouldn't post so much about sleep.. but I can't help it! THIS IS MY PLACE TO VENT. The 6 month sleep regression is KILLING me. Apparently it usually lasts a week or two. It looks like it's been 4 nights so I'm about 30% through it? It's good to know it's temporary. Her sleep regression was coupled with a fever too - her first non-immunization induced fever! So she was also up extra because she was feeling terrible. :( Thankfully her fever has passed and I think now her wake-ups are solely because of hunger. But it's fucking NUTS that her development and growth have been visible. Her face looks bigger, she seems already a bit heavier, and her sitting, talking, and coordination skills have improved significantly these few days :0 Carlo is coming back at such a great time - when she's actually interacting better. Before, I would have to literally put on a show for 6-8 hours f...

Pretty sure she's going through a sleep regression but really it just means that her brain and body is growing extra and she needs the extra night feeds like I kinda talked about in the last post. Uninterrupted night sleep good was for that 4-6 weeks. Took it for granted. Now it looks like I'm back to about 1-2 night feeds.. wonder how long it will last! Went through 2 sleep regressions here by myself. Killa. Damn you, Carlo, so lucky to miss it! So much for getting back into shape! It's hard to take care of yourself when you are not getting your basic need of sleep. But, baby comes first. I haven't even gone for my daily walks these past few days because I'm too tired. Thankfully, with the Labor Day Weekend, my mom happened to be off and she was able to play with her and walk with her more in the day. Even if I don't get to actually fall asleep during these naps, it's nice just to lie down with some peace and quiet as a form of rest. My mom got really lu...

Man, everything about taking care of a baby IS SO EMOTIONAL. Now that she's 6 months, she NEEDS more calories from solid food and not breastmilk. Though, I felt a bit emotional about that earlier this week (literally agonizing over this) because I thought for a bit that maybe it's MY milk supply that's dwindling and that it's my fault that she's hungry, but really, this is just the age where she's growing and needs more nutrition from outside sources simply because she's getting bigger. BAHHH. I couldn't help but feel a bit sad about it. But yeah, again, this is all tied back to night sleep! After her horrible tummy troubles and bad night sleep, I dialed back on giving her solids to be extra cautious. But then she ended up waking up in the middle of the night because of hunger. Or, who knows for sure, since she can't talk, but I had a gut feeling that it was hunger-related because my pediatrician did say that she did gain weight slower. After I ...