emolychan

Sleep: Inching there! My body has been forced to exhaustion and I'm able to usually get a 2 hour nap in the day and then I'm able to sleep at night between feedings (from like 10-7 AM with interruptions every 3-4 hours). Also.. I spoke too soon, and we had our worst two nights back to back this week. Baby was possibly going through a growth spurt? Constant cycle of shift changes between me feeding the Mya, Carlo lulling her to go to bed, her waking up, Carlo trying to lull her back to sleep, back to me feeding, and repeat.. for 4 hours or so with no break (AKA no sleep for both of us during this time..) Body: Soreness down there went away after about a week but still a bit afraid to wipe/pat down so continuing to use the peri-bottle to cleanse down there. Stomach continues to shrink and now mostly looks like I'm a bit pudgy. I've been living in bummy clothes so I have no idea where I'm at in terms of weight or how my 'pre-pregnancy' clothes used to fit. Ma...

Love is: Drowsily waking up to look at the clock and realizing that I've miraculously gotten a full hour of uninterrupted sleep, and that Carlo isn't next to me, and the room is silent., which.. it hadn't been for hours due to an inconsolable, hungry, crying, and screaming baby. Upon opening the bedroom door, I find Carlo sitting on the couch watching TV with dead eyes with Mya finally sleeping contently on his lap. It is because of this selfless sacrifice that I am able to get through yet ANOTHER hour of nursing the baby's insatiable hunger. Two nights ago, I had to nurse every hour from 2:30-9:00 to get the baby (and us!) to sleep because she was going through a growth spurt. That's on top of being already having lack of sleep in the first place. What's the most romantic thing that Carlo has ever done for me? THAT IS.

There's this nursing pillow called 'My Brest Friend.' It's become my best friend. I didn't laugh for 3 days after giving birth. I didn't even realize until I laughed at Carlo for something, and then I felt pain. Lol. It's been a fairly sustenance life (OUTSIDE OF BABY) just trying to get sleep, or nurse, or just exist without some kind of pain or ailment.  This is the most you'll ever wash your hands. *Unless you work in the medical field already lol I was reading that a lot of women fear their first bowel movement and that going to the bathroom after delivering was the scariest thing ever! So I was dreading it. But going #1 was just normal for me (no stinging or anything), and going #2 wasn't too different than regular either other than the fact that I just felt constipated. ALSO. I read that having your stitches come out while going #2 is pretty much impossible, so that alleviated my fear. I always found it amusing when I would tell pe...

One week has passed! General updates: THE MOST IMPORTANT: SLEEP: I have been running on probably 1-2 hours of sleep every day for about 5 days. Mostly because baby has been nocturnal. But, I think we're turning the tide here.. last two days, she actually slept through most of the night and I got a stretch of FOUR HOURS of sleep!! (Mya slept from 11:30 PM - 5:45 AM - yayyy). Surprisingly though, the lack of sleep hasn't gotten to me. Though I think you just get used to it, lol, or maybe your body, as a new mom, adapts?? Or you know that you have a greater purpose than yourself and that's more important than anything. Feeding every 2-3 hours for the first few days is no joke. If your mom breastfed you when you were a baby.. OMG.. you need to show her some extra love. BODY: Still sore up there but I think Mya has been getting the hang of latching properly so I haven't gotten WORSE, but it's still sore. I walk around with my top off most of the time to let it ...

From here, I was given a hospital gown to change into, and I'm only able to change halfway when I have another contraction. Every time I had a contraction, I couldn't help but feel the urge to push. (I had read about this in the baby books!!) While crouching on the the changing room floor, I'm hoping I can even get into the hospital gown properly.. I'm not even able to button the back of it when I feel something down there. I touch it and I'm like.. I hope that's not my baby's head.. I look down and it's a fucking water bag just hanging out of me!! I call out to the nurse, like "Umm.. there's a water bag hanging out of me.." and she looks and asks me to sit on the bed so they can check me properly.. I asked, "Should I sit or stand...?" I didn't really want to sit or lie there in case the water bag would pop, so I think I ended up awkwardly standing there, when the nurse asked me if my water broke, and just then, water starte...

I wish I would get praised every time i passed gas. Just sayin.

I had an extremely quick labor and delivery, especially for a first time mommy! My contractions started at 11 pm and I delivered the baby at 4 am -- so the whole ordeal from start to finish was 5 hours. Pushing was just one hour! I delivered Mya on Valentine's Day, 6 days earlier than our expected due date. I joked to Carlo this whole time that it'd be a Valentine's baby but didn't think it'd actually happen because 1) it didn't look or feel like my stomach had dropped (apparently this is a tell tale sign that the baby has moved down to be ready for delivery), and 2) I heard that first time moms will usually significantly bigger the last week or two before and I only gained 2 pounds or so from week 37 to 39. The doc did say the week before that I was already 2 cm dilated that I would most likely be early.. (I think 4-6 cm is considered active labor when you're getting ready to push)   ANYWAY. So on to the actual L&D story. It was a ...

Hello & welcome, welcome! I've just delivered my baby on 2/14/19, and am now a full-time mom (at least for the time being, until I use up my disability and paid family leave time)! I haven't blogged in LITERALLY 10 years (2009 was the year of my last post here) and I figured it would be good to document this time to read later in life, or to share with Mya :) I've always liked writing and this will be my 'me-time' for sanity. Mental health and emotional hygiene is important, y'all. I don't want to become one of those people that flood people's social media accounts with unsolicited baby and new mom posts. But I also know some folks that DO want to keep up! So, you can visit me here at this page every now and then to see what me and bb Mya have been up to!